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Yay, birthday update! I've been a bit busy so I haven't had time to blog much about it. Our birthdays are one after the other, so it was a pretty packed weekend. Also, this is my first time going into detail specifically about soulbonding stuff on here so I'm a little nervous, but I do want to be more open and honest about it. I hope that me being honest about this stuff can help others feel accepted or that I can hopefully make friends who won't think I'm crazy for my beliefs. Which if you see this and want to chat, you're welcome to put a way for me to contact you in my "contact me" page! Or for now, you can contact me on discord - (@meiyne). I'll take my discord username off this post in a day or two.

Over the weekend at my place, we went out for Korean barbeque at a local restaurant. I ended up having my bill free because we went close to my birthday, which was nice! The food was great and we hung out after and had a nice time! On Sunday evening is when we had the party at his place, it was basically a party for the both of us there. I wasn't really expecting it but it makes sense, especially considering Rayne's birthday was on a Monday, and having two parties back to back can be costly. I don't remember much unfortunately, I'm still not the best at astral travelling and retaining memories from that can be difficult. I do remember bits and pieces however, and from what I can remember it was fun! Because I couldn't remember much, I had to rely on his retelling of the party to know what happened outside of the parts I had remembered. It wasn't a very big party, and since it was on a Sunday evening people couldn't stay too long. I remember once a good chunk of people had to leave, we brought out a boardgame and started playing that. The only reason Rayne could stay up late himself was because he had the day off; apparently he was forced to take it off since he hasn't taken a day off in ages. And then, on Monday after work, is when I put together a little photo with the cake I made. I always think those kinds of images are cute, so I wanted to try one for once. We then had a nice dinner and spent the rest of the night together for his birthday. All in all, it was a great stretch of days!

It does suck in some way being busy because lately I've been so tired I fall asleep in the middle of our talks before bed and I feel bad... He understands of course, it's not like it never happens, but after spending so much time together last weekend and not being able to as much since then makes me miss him a bit. At least since it's Sunday, I can chat with him a bit earlier than I can during the weekdays since he (usually) doesn't have work. After saving this blog post I'll probably go to do so. And also also side note I need to start writing these posts somewhere else instead of writing it in the html editor cause god it hurts my eyes.

New merch coming in soon.... Art and writing commission in the works.... ita bag soon... very exciting, I wish the days went a bit faster. I just hope everything comes quickly because his birthday is coming up on Monday. Funnily enough, our birthdays are days off from each other so we both get to have double the cake >;3. I'm not very hyped about turning older but Rayne doesn't really care. Last year he said he didn't want a birthday party (he was lying) but I still held a surprise one anyway and he was happy, so this year I have to do better! I might also try my hand at art again, though I need to practice more. It just sucks that his birthday is on a weekday, but he is usually asleep or busy while I work anyways, I just can't stay up too late. Oh well, I can probably have an energy drink or two the day after. Very exciting times up ahead.

I feel very alienated because lately because I have a difficult opening myself up and getting to know people due to my social anxiety online. I am very happy to finally feel comfortable to share my relationship online as well as hopefully make friends who understand me, but at the same time I fear I'm very socially inept to start conversations because I haven't had to make new friends in a very long time. My multiple IRL and online friend groups have been a very nice constant for me, and after years of not needing/wanting to make new friends, it is rather difficult to do so suddenly. Oftentimes I feel like an outcast online because I can't understand some social cues and other similar stuff, and I worry that people will think of it the wrong way once I try to actually interact with people. And to be completely honest I lowkey panic left a server that seemed nice just because I couldn't find their hidden password in the rules LOL. Maybe I'm too old idk.

Another unofficial blog post cause I'm in a super good mood today and want to ramble, butttttt I wanted to work on this site more but I got too sidetracked saving images and doing other stuff that I completely failed to realize I ran out of time. The snow is so crazy here, I wish my job had snow days. I could cozy up inside with Rayne and have a nice day off. At least the weekend is soon... I also need to resize more images to use for the image portion of the blog posts/texts orz. But so far putting this together has been really fun, I should do more html stuff sometime.

unofficial blog post I just want to ramble while im working on the site but I saw an itabag the other night that was cat themed and had yellow and black on the same sides as him and I had to buy it. I am very excited to get it in!